Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Blogthings Has not Paid me and I am so disappointed with this result. Damn!

You Are 14% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm.
Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

Monday, June 26, 2006

Blogthings Should pay me for this!!

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.
One moment you're in your own little happy universe...
And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Bondage

Try and see if anything below makes sense. I've spent too many years of my life trying to make sense of what I write, I officially give up. If you have any questions, keep them to yourself, I don't have any answers.

Bondage is my favourite indulgence. The kind of intoxicant that gets me high on self pity. The kind of drug that is mightier than the pen, the sword and now the keyboard. I am bound by convention, so I write to please. I am bound by the lines I draw around my life's circumference. I can't move away, I can only shrink into miniscule anonymity. The chains were given to me when I was born. I chose to fetter myself in their embrace. I don't know if I can free myself. The pleasure of bondage eats on me but it feeds my secret vanity. I am one with it! Amen.

ps:Didn't make any sense did it?

Monday, June 19, 2006

Acceptance?

The things that I have done in order to feel accepted! I almost feel ashamed to admit them. Before I open the vault of shame, let me clear a couple of misconceptions. I AM NOT A SHY PERSON! I can't help it if my voice has a soft high pitched tone, I was born with it. I did some theatre so that I could improve on the audibility factor. The louder I got, the squeakier it sounded, till I was afraid of sounding like one of 'The Powerpuff Girls'.
Alright, confession time, I used to be a 'shy' kid. In retrospect I think I was shy because I was made to believe that! Yes! I think it's the 'Pygmalion Effect'. People believe what they're told and strive to live up to their 'belief system'. I realize now, that I was acting a certain way in order to satisfy a million whimsical misconceptions. If I am shy why on earth would I keep a blog? Oops correction, 3 BLOGS! My closest friends insist that I am anything but 'laconic' (forgive the desperate vocab deviation).
Interesting! I never thought I'd ever acknowledge this fact on one of the most popular blogspots on the internet. Shy and unacceptable?? I don't think so!

Friday, June 16, 2006

Good or Bad?

Forgive the kindergarten touch to this entry, but I still don't get it. Not after more than 2 decades of what can be safely called an existence. What is good, what is bad?
Ok as children we are taught 'God is good, the devil is bad'. Well, I have met neither so I won't pass any judgement on that.
Fine let's try another, 'Truth is good, lies are bad'. Yes, we come in truth, live in truth and die cradled in the arms of the truth!(There is more sarcasm to that statement than actuall truth.)
But still, despite our shortcomings, we are good. We are the best species in the world.
What about murder, corruption,sheer debauchery, perversion, destruction, causing harm to our own kind and to other species? No that's just an occupational hazard that comes with being human!
Good and Bad. Defined by the 'oh so advanced, so priveleged humans'. Do we really have the right to coo at something that feels right and call it 'good'? (What feels right needn't always be right. If you don't believe me look around and see. When people bully each other, to the bully it feels right, but is it right?)
'Good' is just a measure of how much a thing is favoured by public opinion. Yes, if tomorrow the crowd says 'legalize crime', believe me it will be done.
Remember the Lord's prayer ? 'Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven'. Doesn't everyone on this planet think that they're God sometime or the other? As for the heaven part, most people think they are going there by default.

So tell me once again. What is good and what is bad?

Thursday, June 15, 2006

My Blog is Weeping with Self Pity, Let's have some dumb quizzes!

You Are 24% Obsessive

You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control.
Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life.

Monday, June 12, 2006

All Grown Up

I won't lie about my age anymore. There it is, I'm 21. I often wish I could reverse those numbers and be 12 instead. Things didn't seem impossible back then. I am not very different now. It's just that I am more cynical. I had dreams, I don't know where those dreams are.I don't know if it's worth investing the time and the energy in following them.
I feel older now. It's as though the weight of my complications are bringing me down. Still somewhere, I don't feel a thing. It's as though I'm floating through life, like something insignificant. I guess that's how a 'grown-up' rationalizes. I guess it is my cheap justification for classifying my dreams as adolescent-hormonal-rants. Here it is, I am 'comfortably numb'.

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.
From the song 'Comfortably Numb' by Pink Floyd