Saturday, May 27, 2006


I just saw a film based on the novel 'Nineteen Eighty Four' by George Orwell. It was almost educational in the sense that it made me realize how blessed I am. I live in a country that still has some trace of democracy. There is no 'thought police' yet. We still can worship whatever we want to worship, we can still take marches out on the streets and disagree with 'Big Brother'. Sometimes all it takes is a simple reminder of someone else's plight in order to appreciate your current position. This has really opened my eyes to my own good fortune that I have taken for granted. I hope that I never forget this revelation for the rest of existence. I know for sure that I don't want to forget what freedom is like, even if it's limited.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

For the Love of Blogging

I love this job. I wish I could get paid to do this. I can sit all day(with anti glare glasses as I don't have a LCD) and type away to my heart's content. I am not ashamed to be a part of the community of people who do this. It brings me peace and comfort to know that someone else is reading what I write. I believe that a few phrases are enough for a lifetime of liberation. The blog lets me live one life through a few keystrokes. Here's to the blog and to wherever it takes me!

Friday, May 19, 2006

Living to tell a Lie

I often wonder how so many of us manage to live that way. The lies that we tell are probably less offensive than the lies we accept. It is said that a lie when muttered over and over again basks in the glory of truth. We start to believe things that we aren't sure of, things that we cannot prove and things that we don't want to believe. We pass an entire belief system to our children, and they start believing the same things once they become adults.Very soon, we have books and theories to support the same lies. The cycle never ends. It probably goes on even after we attain Nirvana.
We are probably afraid of death because we don't want to stop the lie. We want it to preserve us till existence as we know it ends. Forgive my cynicism, but that's who I am.

Monday, May 15, 2006

Why We Will Never go to Hell

To start with, we are already in hell. The debauchery and the antagonism will not make up for all the fire in Dante's 'Inferno'.
Secondly, hell is a state of mind. A mind that is tormented has a permanent one way ticket to hell. Irrespective of the amount of religious and non-religious doctrine that he/she may have imbibed in this life and previous ones.
Thirdly,we love to attribute undefined characteristics to ourselves. Like, 'the ability to stay in a place like hell and still have a good time'.
Fourthly,we will bring hell upon ourselves no matter what we try to do.

So since hell is already here, where is the question of going to hell?

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Time this Blog had one of these!

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Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Dark Fantasy

For those expecting a gushing post akin to a typical DH Lawrence novel , look elsewhere! We are talking more reclusive stuff here. (Take a look at the blog heading if you aren't convinced).
I dream of sitting in a coffee shop. The dark,Bohemian one's that exist only in movies and books. The kind that are haunted by writers, poets, rebles and the unemployed (I come under all four categories). I dream of writing my first novel on the napkins with a leaky gel pen (I stopped using ink pens because they slow me down). I don't talk much, I just write. I take ages to finish the cup of coffee. I start when the shop opens and leave at sunset. I don't know where my home is so I just wander the streets watching people. I write about all that I see.
In reality I would never use a pseudonym, but my alter-ego is content with a pseudonym for the sake of privacy. There is still more to come, for none of it ever ends. It plays like a broken record.

A Different Beat

I found it difficult to update this space because I wanted to make this the place of my woes. I wanted to project the image of being introverted and almost reclusive. I decided 'to hell with it'. I thought the other blog would be light hearted. Yes, that still continues to be lighter (and sadly more shallow) than this one; but just because I'm alone, it doesn't mean that I can't have fun. I shall use this space for the things that I do for the sake of secret indulgence. So here's to the new and improved blog.

Current Orkut rating: Same as before
Size of Orkut scrapbook: 1030 scraps
Number of friends: 170
Relationship status: single
In my head: Still alone and loving it.